The Real!

I wish I was a poet… so that every word I spoke would be deep enough to drown all the hate and suffering. Leaving an island of love and pain because those are the feelings we learn from!

This state of loneliness (I MISS YOU), It causes me to look back at the times of the past and wonder. How could I lose my life and my love over what.....? I wonder? Have I simply banished myself to a phase of regret? A place where I am unable to forget, Where happiness and contentment have no future but just memories are left. This state of loneliness (I ADORE YOU), I pushed you away flaunting it was the best for you, But since when are tears the result of good things people do. This state of loneliness (I LONG FOR YOU), Nothing in my life could compare to your presence, Now the few words or moments we share I look forward to them like birthday presents. This state of loneliness (I CHERISH YOU), Better than anyone I have seen the result of your growth And each time I’m reminded I broke your trust and my oath. This state of loneliness (I NEED YOU), No action no words no tears filled with your name can ever bring me back from this lone place. I want you I need you back up on my stage, re...

I sit here watching experts in the art, and I can’t help but have this feeling in my heart I wish that could be me standing on the stage the crowd cheering my name As I use words of expression wonderful timing and a peace of my soul to bring smiles to their face Oh how I wish for that day were the essence of the ink and the thoughts that I think become wonderful links From my mind to yours birthing anew way for you to think So I sit watching these experts in the art, wondering when I will get my start Oh how I wish to be apart of this grooving, this movement, this soothing art form Way to special to be called the norm, resembling the eye of heavens storm Quite, peaceful and tranquil surrounded by a raging wind of violent poetic intention This is the model of my heart; this is why I can no longer sit here watching experts in the art This is the reason I need to get my start Pen to paper resembling my soul to the world recording the works of my core My love for this art is the ink ...

“Hi” That’s the only word that escaped the prison that was mouth While others such as radiant, angelic, and beautiful were hidden and restrained to my mind I somehow managed to trap every corny line, every question about the weather. Every thought of doubt telling me to just turn and walk away, all these thoughts were over whelmed by this message from my heart telling me to stay, that I should try and conversate. So I forced myself to open my mouth once again and string together some syllables hoping that this would explain to her and I why my behavior might be dismissible and why I stood here trying desperately to match her snow white smile with mine. But again things would not be fine, see this time what was said almost caused my heart to stop. For the words that came next were of the utmost shock! “My name is Drae, and I would love to know your name?” What was happening what could I be thinking, why would my body not respond to the warning signs that kept blinking! “She’s out of you...

Correct my soul, and correct my spirit Correct my life, and correct what's in it I feel incomplete I need to find what’s missing This is my goal, and these are my wishes I’ve come so far but I've reached my limit I need gods help for this most personal mission My years in this world has dulled my vision I need out of worldly help, a spiritual optician I’ve seen things for what they are, but not what’s real I’ve known such countless emotions but have yet to feel I’ve done some things, made some horrible deals I’m a guest in my body, my own life a movie reel A prayer from my mouth, I hope its grants me an appeal I'm now committed to changing myself................ With incredible zeal! I’m trading hood streets for heavenly roads I’m dropping worldly dreams for some eternal goals Father, Son, Holy Ghost that’s all I wish to know Body, mind and heart working together to save this soul Committed to finding what’s missing, that’s my mission My eternal goal The Black Star © 2009 ...

By faith in god all sins are but forgotten deeds unto the devil let them no longer dwell in my heart! For this faith is but an amnesia for his view of my life as it is the power to resurrect his soldiers. Let your love be your warmth in the cold of the world share it with those frozen in unknown solitude while strengthening your likeness too the fire that burns everlasting without fail. Your love and faith will be a guide to treasures unmatched, to life in a endless state, to peace of heart and soul. Companionship and content that has been a goal for all who have faith and love in them the fellowship of three. The father, son, and holy spirit. ALWAYS & FOREVER The Black Star © 2006 Andre brown

Vision (Edition 1) When you look at me, please tell me what you see Do you see nothing more than a Nigga on the streets A bastard with no father cause he left when I was 3 A black kid with wrong role models because I watch BET You think I follow rappers, putting gold in my teeth Putting “Nike’s” on my feet, selling weed on the street Saying “Yo” when I speak, no no no don’t stereotype me! Don’t look right at me and say that’s all that you see I’m begging you please I need you to believe I need you to see See that my past, present, and future aren’t influenced by T.V. That I wont be found dead lying cold on the street. Tell me why do you adults find it so hard to believe? That I could be the next Cochrine, Jesse Jackson, or Rev Luther king So please everybody the truths a simple thing with good on my side I can be anything The Black Star © 2004 Andre brown

heaven only knows the feelings that arose the first time that i saw u your beauty vibrant like a rose and this is wen I knew the conflict they would pose not knowing if a life with me was in your focus or your goals your words would tell me stay away your tone would tell me go the message I received from your heart please stay with me and grow into what is real into what we feel is life meant for us and sealed by our hearts coming together this is the ultimate in lovers deals Always & Forever The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

GIRL I CARE EVEN THOUGH YOU CAN’T SEE MY TEARS I LOST YOUR TRUST, YOUR LOVE AND I WASN’T FAIR NOW I'M SORRY THAT THIS TIME IS HERE WHERE I MUST APOLOGIZE FOR HURTING YOU WITH MY LIES I PRAY THOSE CUTS, THEY HEAL WITH TIME A WRONGFUL DEED, YES THAT’S MY CRIME MY PUNISHMENT MIGHT LAST FOR LIFE……. I TOOK ADVANTAGE OF YOUR LOVE FOR ME I REGRET MY HEART WAS FILLED WITH GREED NOW HOPE WE CAN PURSUE A FRIENDSHIP DEEP WHILE I SPEND MY LIFE TRYING TO REMOVE THESE SEEDS SEEDS PLANTED BY MY LIES I ASK SET ME FREE FORGIVE ME GRANT ME THIS OPPORTUNITY, TO BE THE MAN AND DO THE THINGS YOU ASK OF ME! Always & Forever The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

THE TRUTH IS THAT I LOVE U, THE TRUTH IS THAT I CARE & EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES I FEEL YOUR LOVE SO NEAR A LIFE WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE HOW HORRID THAT WOULD BE THATS LIKE ME LIVIN MY WHOLE LIFE A BRANCH WITH OUT MY TREE YOU SEE, YOU ARE MY CORE THE MATE TO MY VERY SOUL TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER IS MY FOCUS AND MY GOAL FOUR LETTERS LONG IS THE WORD L-O-V-E AND THATS FOUR PATHS THAT I WORK THROUGH. MY MIND, HEART, BODY, AND SOUL THESE ARE THE WAYS I CONNECT TO YOU MY ANCHOR THAT'S WHAT U ARE TO ME. YOU HOLD ME DOWN AND GROUNDED EVERY TIME IM IN NEED THE TRUTH IS MY LOVE IS TIME, ENDLESS, UNCAPPED, AND OH SO POUR ILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU IF NOT BY BODY THEN BY SOUL! The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

Alone in this place I have forgot your face Forgot your taste Forgot your shape I have forgot the games As kids we played Now I walk head down My dear hung in shame! Please tell me what you ask What is it I should do? Lord knows I wish to prove The love that resides for you Has not and will never move These words I use Are my most useful tool Helping me break rules The empty rules of the world That sometimes enforce this curse Binding my heart to this painful course The hands of time I wish to force That my pain my be healed faster By the worlds best nurse Or maybe an overdose is due Sometimes things are just too cruel I cannot handle the pain I cause you A bitter mistake made by this fool And now you suffer much like I do All I wish is to make things anew Taking your hand Healing your heart Renewing your smile Making you once and for all time mine My love and me living happy Living together Past memories of the hurtful past Alone in this place Forgive me I ask? Always & Forever Th...

Your beauty resembles a sight only seen in my dreams of heaven and its angels A dream like you is out of my physical reach, Yet my heart and love travel through ,my fingers into words typed, Written expressed and hopefully felt by your essence and soul. Like also your smile is felt by mine and your once taken in smell is anchored in my memory of you. A memory that serves as a corner to the puzzle of my very being. Freeing and treating me for this disease called love, White as a dove is the screen I stair at blank and quite frank I sit I wait to see that online message from my mate The changes in her display brings a smile to my face. But girl this something I cant do everyday! The only way is to change our fates And it will be done on this day I will change the stars So your not so far By my side within my arms So I can embrace your body as I please Just wait come online next time you’ll see! Always & Forever The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

Your smile so bright¸ so warm, so free How cruel is this world You’ve yet to smile even once at me Your eyes, so beautiful like a sun set on a beach I must be invisible You always look right through me! Your voice like the birds, singing Good morning to those who sleep To you I must be deaf You’ve never found a reason to speak to me! Everyday you come with him Everyday you leave alone Every morning you smiling Every night I see the tears in your eyes I wonder why your settle for such trash To be treated like you’re less than ash He needs to be thrown back You my dear are the real prize catch Always and Forever The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

Baby can you be this Kings Queen Will your love grant me so many opportunities? To turn impossible into endless possibilities Will you materialize my dreams? Turn them to reality Your love will anchor my soul And my heart will feed As you speed its beat You sweep me off my feet Can you be this Kings QUEEN? Let me worship thee Through your touch set me free If love blinds then girl ill never see But only if, you choose me for eternity What do you want, what do you need? Ill give more than materials ill give all of me Your surely “Gods Gift” for all my good deeds If I were a puzzle could you be my corner piece I ask again be this Kings QUEEN? Neither will follow, none will lead We’ll walk side by side, partners we’ll be Girl be my shade in summers heat I’ll be your warmth never let you freeze Smile bright as stars Eyes deep like seas Your swagger so phenomenal Bring me to my knees Put two rings on your fingers Say yes “Be this Kings QUEEN” The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

I was foolish to attempt this game I disrespected you who won’t be named I’m no longer a man just a boy filled with shame Maybe lower a dog to be tamed, chained, and laid Down at every woman’s feet Forced to accept the punishment for my wrong deeds Deemed a liar burnt in a fire From the a world without your trust Our friendship so close to being dust Under my crimes and lies it’s crushed Now I rush to fix, reclaim, or create A new chapter for us filled with not mis-truth or hate As a man and friend I promise I’m done with these games The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

PLEASE DON’T GET IT TWISTED! IM AWARE IM TERRFIC! WRITE MAGICAL LINES LIKE IM SOME KIND OF MYSTIC TO SILENCE THESE CRITICS YEP THAT’S MY TYPE OF BUSINESS SO YA I’M AWARE IM TERRIFIC! NOW WAIT JUST ONE MINUTE THINK I JUST HAD A VISION EXCITING YOUR SOULS, WITH MY TIMING PRECISION MY SMILE, MY SWAGGER AND MY FIERCE DISPOSITION I OPEN MY MOUTH YOUR EARS CANT HELP BUT LISTEN YOU KNOW WHY? CAUSE NOW EVEN YOU KNOW IM TERRIFIC! Always & Forever The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

THESE WORDS ARE MY START THESE WORDS ARE MY ART THEY COME FROM A MIND SHARP AS A DART PIERCING YOUR SOULS, GRABBING YOUR HEARTS INFLAMING YOUR SENSES LIKE THE BRIGHTEST STAR YES I SAID IT I AM THE BRIGHTEST STAR LIKE A PHOENIX I RISE AFTER EACH FALL' STANDING STRONGER, SMARTER DESTINED NOT TO REPEAT THE MISTAKES OF MY FATHER LEARNING FROM THE PAST BUT "FOCUSED" ON THE FUTURE, THE PRESENT YES LIFE IS A PRESENT, NO RATHER A GIFT! WE ARE, I AM " GODZ GIFT" PLACED TO FILL THE RIFT BECAUSE YOU - ME - WE CONTINUE TO IGNORE OUR RESPONS -I-BIL-I-TIES TO OURSELVES TO EACH OTHER AS A SOCIETY COME ON WE GOT TO DO BETTER! The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

I care about you oh so much My spirit my soul they miss your touch Your eyes your smile, your voice, your love I hurt you once that’s my grave I dug Baby with you this is no simple crush To hear or see you that’s the biggest rush Miles apart you slept with me When I close my eyes it’s you I see Never in my life have I felt so weak You hold my heart, you speed its beat With out a doubt it’s you I need, I crave your warmth, cant help but fiend It fills my soul completes my goals Love like this I've never known I wish each day for you to hold I ask you please would you stay with me Will you take my hand, can you set me free My only request girl just love me The Black Star © 2008 Andre brown

GRACE & BEAUTY PERSONIFIED & CONCENTRATED INTO ONE BODY ONE HEART ONE SOUL ONE YOU. PURE AS THE FIRST SNOW FALL OF A WINTER MORNING. AS RADIENT AS A FULL MOON ON SPRINGS FIRST NIGHT. SIMPLY YOU. MY NEEDS AND DESIRES ARE ETCHED WITHIN YOUR SOUL, THEY ARE YOUR VERY BEING, THEY ARE WITHOUT A DOUBT YOU. MOMENTS NOT CONNECTED TO YOU ARE MOMENTS MISSED AND LOST. THESE MONENT NOT CONNECTED TO YOU ARE BY FAR NOT WORTH THE COST. THE COST OF BEING INCOMPLETE, THE COST OF BEING LEFT IN NEED. THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO ME, THIS IS WHY I NO LONGER FEEL NOT PAIN OR STRIFE BUT JOY AND PEACE. YOUR WHAT I NEED, WHEN WITH YOU I BREED SUCH FEELINGS THAT ARE SO COMPLETE. THEY PROVE YOU ARE MY NOW, MY FUTURE, MY DESTINY. The Black Star © 2007 Andre brown

I’m deaf, I'm blind, I’m mute, and I’m lame The world keeps changing, but my heart stays the same Really and truly I’m tired of playing this game Been called so much things can’t remember my name Let’s slow down this movie called my life Let’s take our time, let’s get it right Am I scared you ask, for sure dam right? All alone walking this dark path at night! Before the ending credits roll, Ill edit these last frames change the story told Straiten out these creases, fix theses pages Ill rewrite all this shit so I got to make it Or is it to late, has my curtain been cast If so what a shame I guess my dream didn’t last Took my time and I rose to the top Now I’m falling so fast see ground but can’t stop No I refuse to accept this script Have angels speaking in my ears they giving me hints I take a spiritual walk all by myself Bring my heart and mind together and let them melt Now I’m sure of what I want new cards I’m dealt Take my focus of these haters out it on myself So I got time, ...